Gages Birthday :(

Yesterday was Gage's birthday the family gathered together at the cemetery to let balloons go with messages tied on them from everyone. oh how i wish i was there. I love you Gagee!! Here is a great pic of Brandon, Jill and Gentry with the posters my mom made fo Gage. You are loved by so many people buddy!

a pic of my Mom, Dad, Brandon and his sweet little princess. Love you so much Brand! Miss you guys tons!

What a beautiful cloud of purple ballons. For those that don't know Gage's favorite color was purple so we did purple balloons for him. We Love you!!

What a great day they all must of had sharing all their memories of Gage. We love you Brand, Jill and Gentry your always in our hearts and our prayers. You have such a sweet little family. Thanks Nancy for the wonderful pics you took. Your such a great friend, we love you! the Boys miss their Grandma Nancy!!!!! I don't know what we would all do wthout you. You truly are a blessing sent from heaven.

Thanks to everyone for their love and support through these hard times. You are all amazing. I want to send out a special thank you to the wonderful family my dad and brother have with work. You are all the best I don't think they would be able to get through this with out you and you love. they really have the best job anyone could have. Thanks again!!!!

This is just a hard day....

Why do bad things have to happen. I sure miss Gage, he was the sweetest little boy I know. I love him so much and don't know when the last time i told him I loved him. looking at pictures tonight was really hard. I cried and cried. Miss him sooo much! My boys just always loved Playing with their Gagee. I wish there would be a miracle to bring him back to us. I can't imagine what Brandon Jill and Gentry are going through its gotta be ten times harder for them than it is for me. I don't know how people get through things like this. Everytime i see a pic of him i fall apart. I'm so glad I was so close to him and had all the opportunities to spend time with him and get to know him. He will always be my buddy! I will never forget about him. I think about him daily. Miss you sooooo Much Gagee! Aunt Bre, Uncle Kam, Ryker and Payten Love you sooo much!!!!!!

having a hard day

Just a little update. Brand is now at my mom's house. He is having a really hard time he says he can't live without his Buddy. I am aching right now just thinking of that little guy and all the smiles he brought into my home when he was last here. I miss you sooo much Gage! we love you and think of you daily and the wonderful things you brought to our lives. You had the biggest heart and was always so excited to come stay at my house and to be with Ryker and PayPay. we love you sooo much and will always remember you for the sweet boy you were. You touched so many lives and I will always remember our last visit to the red rocks when you were here and how much fun we all had. I see you every time i Close my eyes.

here is just a little poem I had given to Brandon. we love you Brand hang in there.


A TRIBUTE TO GAGE

No words I write could ever say
How sad and empty I feel today.
The Angels came for you
Much sooner than I planned.
I'll brave the bitter grief that comes
And i'll try my best to understand.
Gage why did you have to go away
why wasn't it right for you to stay.
In my heart Gage will always be
I love him dearly and I know he'll watch over me.
What I'm suffering seems so unfair
But one thing is for certain
My love for him will always be there.
Gage my son you always will be
the most important part of my hearts memory
I'll cherish the moments I held you in my arms
And i'm sure that if you had of stayed longer
You would have graced me with your charms
a thousand words won't bring you back
I know because i've tried
Neither will a thousand tears
I know because i've cried
Now you're up in Heaven
with the angels up above
They will take my place for now
and they'll give you all their love
so go and rest in peace now
my little boy so dear
for all my love and memories
i will hold forever near.


Brand that poem is for you. I love you guys so much! remember he is watching over you now. and will always be there. Ryker said the other day that Gage was looking down from heaven laughing because Payten was being silly. I was so cute my 5 year old boy know that he is there watching over at us and he knows that we he will get to play with him again. We love you sooo much Buddy! Keep watching over your dad mom and baby gentry they all need to feel your love.

TRAGIC ACCIDENT

So some of you may not know, on Fathers Day we had a family accident. My brother and his sweet Family were traveling to Sandy to my grandma's house and they were driving down Provo canyon and got in a horrible car accident on Provo Canyon. the other driver came over the white line and hit them head on. Brand was knocked unconscious. Some people that were passing by stopped and got the car took 7 month old Gentry out of her car seat wrapped her in a blanket and got her warm then showed her to Jill so she knew she was okay. they then realized something was wrong with 4 year old Gage, they then pulled him out of his car seat laid him down and started CPR. The EMT's came and took Gentry and Jill the Heber Valley Hospital. they then started working on Gage. Brandon woke up seen them working on Gage and then pulled his phone out called my dad and said I need you i got in a wrecked they are working on Gage. I'm in Provo Canyon and the phone went dead. they then took Gage to Heber Valley Hospital and Life flighted Brand to Utah Valley Hopsital. then they decided he needed to go to the University of Utah so life flighted him there. they also life flighted jill there because of there serious injuries. after lots and lots of test they decide Gentry was perfectly fine and my Aunt Melissa went to pick her up. This is the time I got the horrible phone call that our sweet precious little boy Gage did not make it. we were driving at the time and boy was that the longest trip ever. They took brand into surgery first he had bleeding on his brain and they had to remove part of his small intestines. then they had to pine his leg altogether to hold it in place. then they took Jill in. she crushed some fingers in her right hand and did something to her shoulder and left elbow. she also shattered her right ankle and her left knee cap. they went in and fixed her foot and hand. then they came out and spent the night in the ICU the next day they were taken out of the ICU and they were both alert and my dad and mom had to tell them about there sweet boy. the next day the took brand and jill back in for surgery. Brand shattered his femor and his tibia. so they went in and put a rod and pins in his whole leg. they then went in and fixed jills knee cap. brand was put back in the ICU, because of his oxygen level. they then spend a few more days in the hospital. they are currently in a rehab/ nursing home. jill will be there for about 2 months because she hurt both legs and a arm so she can't walk or even use a walker. Brand is there for we are hoping like 10 more days. They are both recoverying very well. Brand is able to get up and use a walker. he still can't put any weight on his leg. we had the funeral on Friday. it was such a great service. Thanks so much to all those who have showed there love and support for the family. we love you all and appreciate it very much! They are doing a lunch fundraise in salt lake city at the law enforcement office on Thursday July 7th at 11 to 1. it is 6 dollars a person and there will be an auction all the money will be going to brand and JIll to help pay for medical bills and just regular bills and funeral costs. There is also an account set up at Mount America Credit Union under Gage Memorial Fund. to help them pay for all that they need. Brand and JIll will prob be out of work for a year because of injuries. Thanks so much again everyone!!
WE LOVE YOU BRAND AND JILL! JUST REMEMBER THAT YOU HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE THAT LOVE AND CARE FOR YOU AND WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR YOU. GAGY WE LOVE AND MISS YOU DEARLY. I KNOW YOU ARE WITH OUR HEAVENLY FATHER NOW LOOKING DOWN ON US. LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCH BOO BOO!!!! CINDY MISSES YOU SOOOOO MUCH! JUST REMEMBER TO WATCH OVER YOUR MOM DAD AND BABY SISTER GENTRY!!!

A family friend I know they have been going through a horrible trial in there life after they were married. He lost his sight and they had a little boy he had a terrible accident and he has to learn how to hold his head up, talk, walk you name it all over again. She posted something that made me really think about my life. she said she just misses Normal. I thought and thought while reading her post she just misses having a normal life. I thought forever about it and i am so lucky to have the life I do. I always complain about having to go grocery shopping with my kids but now after reading her post she can't even take her little boy out to the store anymore. they can't just get up and leave in the morning he needs so much! I always am complaining about Kamron all wanting to go fishing and I don't know if I will complain anymore about it. Zach can't even do the things he loves anymore because he can't see. I am just so thankful for my life, for my family and most of all having the gospel in my life. It has seriously been the greatest blessing in our lives. we will continue to pray for you Zach and your precious little family!
Don't take the little things in your life for granite!